Into The Maelstrom

Sometimes the Gods put you where you are needed.... Taken from my Facebook(This happened today) I went down to my bank today for an inquiry,and had a nice chat with a very nice employee(who happens to be expecting,congrats) and left happy. All the while,I was debating on if I was going to pay for my birthday cake today or not,knowing I am going to MegaCon in a few hours. So I went and walked down the road to the Publix that I frequent. At the bus stop,there was an older lady and a guy there. The older lady walks to me,and I step back abit,thinking she needed to cross in the opposite direction. She then asks me if I could,"hold her hand and help me across the street to Publix ", She was shaking very bad and had told me,this had happened a few times before(attractions people,you know what happened next),so I say of course,and helped her across the street and throught the parking lot to Publix. Since my phone was off,some bystanders hearing me let me borrow theirs to make the call to emergency services. The messed up part? We were in front of the pharmacy,and the first associate happened to be on a phone call and told me to wait(I get that she was on a call,but she could've asked what I needed),then the pharmacist wanted the lady to wait for a few minutes,because "she couldn't be there too long." EXCUSE ME...THIS IS A MEDICAL EMERGENCY. SHE CAN SIT THERE AS LONG AS NEEDED!!!!😤😡 He wanted to get the store manager,who did come along as I was on the call with 911. "She needs help" the one of the bystanders said repeatedly to the pharmacist who basically said that she probably just needed to sit for a few minutes. 😡😡 SERIOUSLY?? I hung around after the manager took over and the lady assured me she was okay with the manager alone. I still hung around,and saw that the EMTs had arrived and were talking to her. I was assured seeing this and I headed back to the bus stop. It made me wonder...if I hadn't been there,what would've happened? Would the guy at the bus stop had helped her? Would anyone had listened to her? I believe this is why I went to pay for my cake today. I was needed and I stepped up. It also makes me wonder,what happened to humanity? Do people simply think that something will just stop and they will "be okay" or something "isn't that serious"? What the hell? Have people become that desensitized,and not care? Man,today was an even further eye opener for me. I am just glad she is getting the assistance she needs.

Now that I have "dipped my toes" into the Shadow world,so to speak,Bella told me that we would be working with the Dark Goddesses,one of my favorites,Persephone,and the other,Inanna. I wanted to make an offering to them bot,as well as Cerridwen,who kept popping up in my thoughts. So,Vea,I may need your help on this one. I have no idea what would be a good welcome for them. I am excited. I can't wait to see them and go deeper within myself.

Something stirrs and awakens within me.Have you ever felt like your life is shaking everything up,disturbing the calm,to usher in a wave of new? That is what I believe is happening to me. I am not sure when,but in the near future,I will no longer be living here at the hotel. Paying three hundred a week is becoming harder to do,and I feel that I am being pushed elsewhere. The whole area is becoming overcrowded,weird people popping up every now and again,and did I mention overcrowded? I was supposed to go to a homeowners info session,but every bus was delayed,according to online,and would've made me late. Plus,more importantly,the feeling was off,like a big....NOPE settled on me. I think.it has to do with my phone being off temporarily and not being able to call out should the need arise. I will reschedule during vacation next week. Lately,I have been feeling this change more and more. I think,as I've already said before,I will not be in the same dire straights as I am now. SOON everything changes.

ME:6 PROCRASTINATION:15 I have so much I want to accomplish,but procrastination is kicking my ass. Eight days into the new year and its grip has only tightened. This is a bigger battle than I've thought. I am tired of being tired,stuck to my bed,not progressing. At this point,it would be fair of you to ask,if any of my ventures are worth it. To that, I say a resounding,YES. I think there are other factors contributing to this,mainly my main job at Disney. If it came to it, I would definitely leave for health reasons,like I did Buffalo Wild Wings. I am going to leave my current company in four years,when I reach twenty years. Its time. Beyond time actually. My ventures are my key to happiness and away from 9—5. I will not falter. I WILL be my own boss. Thus,why procrastination isn't helpful at all. I need to be on all cylinders and I will be,one brick at a time. Screw you,procrastination! You aren't winning this war!

Here we are again,old friend. Now,yes,I know Yule OFFICIALLY ended on the twenty-second,but I celebrate it until the second of January. It's something about that tine period. I aent out text messages to my family today and worked a nice shift,from eight-thirty until three-thirty. The next two weeks are earlier that normal due to the holiday season,but I don't hate it. Leaving.work in the early afternoon? I will take it. The only speedbump I hit is catching a small cold.The usual suspects,dry,slightly uncomfortable throat,coughing with a bunch of phlem(yummy,NOT),cold in body temperature and the occasional sneezing. I chalk it up to working at Disney,with all of the guests primarily guests (some cast too) coughing and sneezing into the air,not covering their mouthes and noses. Too much exposure to their germs,and BOOM! Slight cold ahead. I hope it passes quickly,as I have to continue my grind,voice acting,etc. Other than that,I am resting well and had an amazing day. Bleesed Yule to you all and Have a great night!

Inspired by my friend Vea,I created my Finch account. I have a purple girl birb,and I named her Rhapsody(after one of my favorite JRPG's:Rhapsody: A Musical Adventure)This cute little one has a lot to help me keep track of,lol. Side note,I am proud of myself for doing this. I need to address a lot of issues I have with and within myself and this is just another step in the right direction. So take that,procrastination! Me four,you six. I am catching up. I can do this. Now off to do more things tonight,and plan my return to the gym.

This 'habit' really needs to go. I am in bed everyday when I arrive back to my room for the evening,and all day on my days off,unless I need to food shop or something. I have been doing auditions,(which I was invited to audition for one yesterday,fingers crossed) but its been more of a do a few now,then take a HUGE gap,then do a bit more then another huge gap. Its like I am in the ocean,needing to reach land,and I swim for five minutes,then just stop,and let the waves buft me and I bobble unmoving,until I do the bare minimum again. I am upset with myself about this. Procrastination is not a easy habit to break. I NEED TO DO THIS. For my future,for my health,I can't afford to do this to myself. I am done not 'being' about it. This ends NOW.

Let me catch you up...it all started with seeing groups of the numbers three and four. Whether on a clock,or the T.V. or my devices,the bus,etc. 333 or 3333. 444 or 4444. This is still going on,only the former not the latter. Add onto my Tarot reading,where both The Emperor and The Emperess jumped out to say hello. The third and fourth cards of the major arcana TOGETHER. This clearly meant a couple. Myself with my partner,whom ever he may be. Add onto the fact that I have been drawn to watching real life couples on YouTube,or people watching at work. They are surrounding me more than usually,and I've taken notice. In that same Tarot reading,The Sun and The Moon BOTH appeared too,which is rare and odd at the same time. Yet,it feels like a confirmation of sorts. I am going to be in a relationship,with someone who is my equal VERY soon. If I STILL,for SOME reason, couldn't seem to figure this out,my Aunt called me and asked,if I had a boyfriend,then after I said no,she joked around saying I would be pregnant and engaged to someone the next time she saw me. This is the same aunt who asked me this in person in August. I merely replied,that I might be with someone,but she was WAAAY off base with the rest of it,but who am I to say? The fates work in mysterious ways. I just saw 333 again,on my microwave. Lol. Then ,as if that weren't enough,a certain Archangel is making himself known. GABRIEL,in the form of GABRIELLE. I in the past few days have met at least five women with the name Gabrielle/a at work,excluding my coworker with the same name. So,if I am reading this correctly,Archangel Gabriel is bringing me together with my true partner in the VERY NEAR future. This all is too much to be a coincidence.....

So I am not to pay my phone bill on time this month,and will be more than likely disconnected for the next few days. Yes, I asked for a extention and today is the last day. A whopping two days more...yay. My bill normally would be due on the second of each month, thus the two days. Companies know that most don't have money like that. This stinks,because I need to post my auditions and continue looking for more opportunities. Luckily my job has a computer center,so I won't be too off put. Bills were harder to manage this month,and I need to get those sorted,before I can get the phone taken care of. Thank goodness this won't be for too long,but it does bring the internet issue back up to the forefront. I can't wait much longer and I will initiate the talks with century link once I've settled my phone bill and the other bills. See you all in a bit,hopefully with a bunch of new stories to tell...

RABBIT RABBIT!!! New month,a continuation of grinding. May the elder gods continue to bless my watery,bent and crooked path, Blessed Be!