A Big ASS Risk...

So, we are now in the thralls of Mercury Retrograde and have been since the fourteenth of October. "Don't take any unnecessary risks" One of my fortune cookies said,but I am thinking otherwise. By now I know that you are thinking to yourself, " Get to the damn point already,Toccarra ! *smirks* My business of being a voice actor means A LOT of auditions. My conundrum is do I accept new contracts because my business is LITERALLY only contracts. Mercury Retrograde is know n to be a unsavory periods For contracts as well,BUT not for work,which is a loopjole. So do I go for it,or just stick to the projects I have? Slightly switching gears here,but I have been thinking: why not? Why not ask Mercury Retrograde to shake things up,or destroy what doesn't serve me any longer? This might be,for the umpteenth time in this post,a very risky move,but I feel unphased by it,as if this is what I need to reach the next level. Bless the Gods and hope for the best for me.

To My Baby

*Sighs heavily* Goddess, where do I begin? I first found out that I was expecting you eleven years ago,in January. At first, I was shocked and I asked you not to be born at that time. I hadn't wanted you raised with two parents in constant conflict. Your Mom teaching you right and your father caring more about his friends and what his family wanted,letting them into our business. So much stress,caused me to miscary you. At first, I didn't feel anything at all. Over the years,that has changed. That being said,the last few days,you have been on my mind. I can't believe that you would have been ELEVEN this year! Eleven! A fun-loving, sweet child,probably driving me crazy,haha! I can imagine all the adventures we would have together and see you growing up into a fine person. I wonder what your favorite foods would've been,your favorite t.v. shows,your favorite color,your favorite book,so on and so forth. I never knew if you were a boy or a girl. *sighs again* I wish that I knew,but I want you to know that you have a name. Rinne/Wren. Like the bird. Rinne Freya, if you were a girl,Wren Marsalis,if you were a boy. I like to think that you are telling me that I will be a Mom again soon. Maybe I am reading into this a bit much, but I can't help but wonder and hope a little. I want you to know that even though I never got to hold you,caress your face,kiss your sweet face,count your little toes,hold you as you cried and wipe away your tears,you are STILL MY CHILD. I will always love you and am grateful we were together for a brief moment. I am your Mom and I am happy to say that. Mommy loves you sweetheart. See you again one day. Love Mommy.