Procrastination Need Not Apply(And I Am Unanimous In That!!!!)

This 'habit' really needs to go. I am in bed everyday when I arrive back to my room for the evening,and all day on my days off,unless I need to food shop or something. I have been doing auditions,(which I was invited to audition for one yesterday,fingers crossed) but its been more of a do a few now,then take a HUGE gap,then do a bit more then another huge gap. Its like I am in the ocean,needing to reach land,and I swim for five minutes,then just stop,and let the waves buft me and I bobble unmoving,until I do the bare minimum again. I am upset with myself about this. Procrastination is not a easy habit to break. I NEED TO DO THIS. For my future,for my health,I can't afford to do this to myself. I am done not 'being' about it. This ends NOW.

Cash Wall

Welp, my phone is off AGAIN. I am late with the bill and they added the newest bill last week. I don't have the money to pay for it at this time. This is the same as what had happened last month. I had no money and had to resort to getting a loan,which takes form me every week,the other take from me every other week. So yes,I will be in the MARVELOUS position of both loans taking out on the same day every other week. Wonderful. I have hated this cash wall. I hate money with a passion,but I need it to do things. Such a dependecy that I never asked for. No one has to be honest. Not having the money has slammed the door shut to so many opportunities for me. I will eliminate this too. I will eliminate procrastination and I will actively pursue remote opportunities for extra income. That way these loans,this hotel stay,and this cycle of brokeness will end. I am going to knock this wall down like its Berlin all over again. Let's do this!