It should be a good thing....right？

[ethereal_tempest]

So, today my job announced plans to reopen mid July. You would think that would make me happy...right? I ABSOLUTELY PANICKED!!! Granted,I thought that my friend was talking about JUNE not JULY. All the things I've yet to do ran through my head and I kept thinking about all of the things that I want to do equally ran through my head. BUT through all of that,were all the issues and things that I could see happening,worse than ever due to
the new temporary guidelines. Its like I can already feel the fuckin' headache already. Now don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for the precautions,just not the “think they are entitled” public. Yes,I miss the sites,the smells,the sounds amoung other things. This brought on a chilling realization: I don't want to go back. AT. ALL. I was working two jobs,trying to get my business off the ground (what little I could do because of said jobs) plus learning chinese and finally going to the gym. I don't have a lot of juice left for either jobs and I just want to focus on my business. The two dead end job life has to end. There's so much more to my life than that. I feel so free,like I can do anything;like I have been freed from the shackle of this life. I have been given time to reflect and go forward as I see fit. I think that I was right when I said that I have two years left with the company. I refuse to work myself to death for peanuts,beating a dead horse,never moving forward,the same shit different day. Its time to get my ass in gear and turn it up a few more notches. One step closer to self-employed,here I come!

Comments

[wraithmoon]

I think there's a lot of that moment of clarity for a lot of people, not wanting to go back to the way things were before and seeing how broken our system is for most people. (Or rather, anyone in the working class.) I think its awesome you've got your goals and I can't wait to see them manifest for you :)