All By My Lonesome...
Sep. 8th, 2021 11:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ethereal_tempestI know that you are out there...we just haven't crossed path,our stars not yet aligned...
I have been tempted to look for you. As I told my best friend earlier,between my living situation and other early matters,I felt I shouldn't do so. I've been alone so long and it's hard for me to crack this shell and yet I've just realized,that it's not my job to crack this shell:IT'S YOURS. I will admit,if I am to be alone this life,I will be okay with it. Although,if the visuals I've had have shown me anything,it's that I won't be. The feelings that have accompanied those visuals that I've tasted,that have filled me,I won't be. I also realized that I am being conditional. There is no rhyme or reason to this. I can FEEL YOU. YOU.ARE.FIERCE. I wonder why am I being conditional? Don't I feel.like I am enough,I am worthy,deserving? Absolutely. I'm confused darling. Dare I risk it? I think I should. I've exhausted all conditions. I'm going to try. I'm going to meditate tonight. Remember how I heard you before? I'm sure you remember,you are just as spiritual as I. I don't know what's come over me,I'm not normally like this. Perhaps this is my soul,my very being calling out to yours. *inhales deeply and extends hand* Here is my hand,take it. Two stars...two lonesome,world worn people. Together we can shine even brighter.
I have been tempted to look for you. As I told my best friend earlier,between my living situation and other early matters,I felt I shouldn't do so. I've been alone so long and it's hard for me to crack this shell and yet I've just realized,that it's not my job to crack this shell:IT'S YOURS. I will admit,if I am to be alone this life,I will be okay with it. Although,if the visuals I've had have shown me anything,it's that I won't be. The feelings that have accompanied those visuals that I've tasted,that have filled me,I won't be. I also realized that I am being conditional. There is no rhyme or reason to this. I can FEEL YOU. YOU.ARE.FIERCE. I wonder why am I being conditional? Don't I feel.like I am enough,I am worthy,deserving? Absolutely. I'm confused darling. Dare I risk it? I think I should. I've exhausted all conditions. I'm going to try. I'm going to meditate tonight. Remember how I heard you before? I'm sure you remember,you are just as spiritual as I. I don't know what's come over me,I'm not normally like this. Perhaps this is my soul,my very being calling out to yours. *inhales deeply and extends hand* Here is my hand,take it. Two stars...two lonesome,world worn people. Together we can shine even brighter.
