Kinda Late,But...well, 2021

Firstly,2021....the continuation of 2020 as far as I am concerned. I worked,grew more,moved back into the hotel and away from those former friends and regained peace of mind,I worked a lot physically and hangout with some friends when time presented itself. All in all,still the same ol' same ol'. Except for the tickle that was in my throat...

New Year's EVEL

One of my audiobooks was due on New Year's Eve, and my manager didn't let me out until later and I couldn't post it,which pissed me off,the gods forfuckingforbid that TOCCARRA actually has other shit to do that sling wings at fucking BWW!!! She kept delaying me,, causing me to almost miss the last bus as a result. No means no.. It's not a fucking negotiation!!! The fucking disrespect!!! By the time I arrived home,all I could do was watch the fireworks,and hope that all would be well...storywise,yes,after that? WELL...

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New Year's Eve...was the last time I felt good,physically. What followed was three weeks of sickness unlike I have ever had. It started ahead of New Year's Eve with a headache that lasted for four days then a chest pain for a few days then continued on downward with muscle spasms. Having the trait of Sickle.Cell Animia,I know those pains are a part of it,which I avoided,until I got older. It doesn't happen often,just very random. So I didn't think about it. Just chalk it up to my medical history. I have a history of keeping a cold for a long period of time,so again,I thought nothing of it. But I digress. After getting sprinkled on a little by rain after New Year's Eve, I suddenly couldn't keep warm. I could not regulate my body's temperature for three days. I was drinking hot water,eating hot soup,wrapped in a blanket,rubbing my thighs...NOTHING WORKED. I'm in the middle of my Chinese Class and trying to pay attention and keep warm. I also had a
lot of phlegm building up,that I was spitting out constantly. I spat a lot more than usual,so it was a bit of a concern. Then, the body wracking coughs,the deep coughs. I couldn't keep anything down,because of the coughing. The bulk of the time everything I ate had processed,so I didn't puke,other times I wasn't as fortunate. I found myself waking up several times a night,running to the bathroom either to puke or to relieve myself,which ALSO was happening more usual. Add onto this my nose was running like a faucet AND the blood tide just said fuck it and decided to join the fray of fuckery and left me drained of energy. So I'm at work and no,I couldn't afford to(and still can't afford to) call off. At my second job,there was an incident where I couldn't get my cough under control in front of some customers so I excused myself and ended up puking phlegm into the sink before I could control my coughing.. My "Manager" had the fucking AUDACITY to tell me that I should've told the other manager. Right...so I should puke in front if the OTHER manager,WHOM, at that time was giving an interview? I will MAKE SURE that I remember that for next time. Rather be gone for for few minutes than puke in fron of people.. She ALSO had the audacity to ask if I was okay afterwards! The URGE to tell her to FUCK OFF was paramount, but I wasn't well enough for that shit. Again,I couldn't call off. Being back in a hotel, that I pay for on a weekly basis, it wouldn't have been good at all aka possibly not having enough money to pay for my room. Should I have gotten tested for COVID? Yes,yet several places were shut down because they weren't real locations and were stealing people's info,so I wouldn't risk that and the flu was also destroying people at this time so I wasn't sure. I can't afford to be out of work at this time. Had I been in my next place when this was happening? Definitely. It was more of the fact I couldn't,without circumstances that followed not being in my favor. Appologies for sounding like a broken record. Again,my own medical history rears its ugly head. Did I happen to mention that this happened DURING Mercury Retrograde? Pre Retrograde was hell too. Almost getting hit, bad traffic,walking almost six miles due to the bad traffic,thus forcing the blood tide to come earlier,being away from the gym for a month because of the holidays,second job shit,electronics working poorly,etc. Yet again, I digress. I was drinking Electrolit (a rapid hydration drink like pedialyte) taking Dayquil Severe Plus Vapor Cools and a flaxseed oil pill for my blood pressure. After three days I was at fifty percent. I kept repeating this and by the time my Mom's birthday January 25th,I can say I was at ninety percent. Was I irresponsible in a bunch of ways? Yes. Did I want to be? NO. I wasn't the only one it seems. Another friend of my via Facebook literally had the same thing happen to her AT THE SAME TIME. No, we weren't in the same area as each other either. I had such plans for January...and it went to shit...ABSOLUTE SHIT...I'm done gripping about it. February I WILL make it a better month... I claim it!!!!!

In Midst of...

During the fuck show of January...I was going to apply for my first home loan. Yet,due to sickness and Mercury Retrograde,I put that on hold. There have been so many beautiful places that I have seen and can envision myself in,but the timing wasn't right and I didn't like the vibe that the loan assistant,Rob Wolfe,gave off. Not long afterwards,he left the company and I was assigned a new person to apply with,Joel Morales. Since both afflictions are over,I'm going to apply and see what happens. The worst they can do is say no. I don't need anything too fancy,just something roomy,yet cozy. Preferably with not too many people around and close to shops and the like. I'm looking into homes in Lakeland,forty- five minutes away or Winter Garden and Haines City, which would be closer to my jobs. I honestly have my heart set on Lakeland,but if my heart and pocket pull me elsewhere,I will be okay with that.