Right Here,Right Now, I Affirm...

I am grey.... I am neither light nor dark,I am a lady who dwells within the middle. I own it...My light and my dark,my lover and my fighter,my harmony,my discord. All that I am,all that I've been and will become. I am powerful and I am weak. I am strong and I am humble. I am life,I am death,I am beauty;a lush spring and a crisp fall. Yet always,ALWAYS...ME.

Looking Within

Soul's Truth (aka daily affirmations) :I am worthy.

I struggle with this. It's hard to convince myself of my worth when I seem to be making the same mistakes,especially when it comes to people. I vow to myself to rediscover and treasure my own worth.

"All That Shimmers..."

"All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade..." ~Fuel

My power,I feel,has been fading...I feel that this is because I have fallen out of practice and my own attunement (which was not the greatest). I have been lazy,overworked and tired,although this is all true,I feel like it's a tired(pun intended) excuse,a cop out of sorts. I feel so tired of trying most days. The gym has been a GREAT outlet for this,but even I miss days here and there working out too. I really want to destroy this force...that keeps holding me back. In order to find out more about my inner workings,outside of Reiki,Green Witchery and astro work,I have decided to take up Shadow work and Meditation. I think I will benefit from work with these first. YouTube has several shadow work videos,but I am also trying to reduce my screen time,so I want to find a book to help me. I think books are better in a lot of ways. I can't focus and I'm past due on deadlines for my projects. I want to be better and more in tune with myself and my power. I will say,that I think this was supposed to happen,part of the Prophecies I spoke aloud back when I was twelve. One part keeps sticking out more than others:that I would start to relive or revisit past events and that would precede the collapse of the damns within my mind and spirit,causing me to feel everything at once. I am not afraid,I need this to work,and I feel that need will help me a long ways.