Sunset on Valentine's Day

*sighs* The sunset is so beautiful today. The colors,the light and the feeling it gives me within. The sun has also set on some of our International College Program students. They are all from Brazil and a bunch,(One of the girls told me its twenty-four people. Whew!)are leaving today. They were all a really good crop of student and I wish them all the best and do hope that they keep in touch...

Now on to other things...forgive me if I sound like a broken record,but I feel...HIM. This guy that I am supposed to start seeing in the future. He(and make no mistakes,it's a man. So much masculine energy) feels distant,but not as distant as before. When I was in the hospital last month,that was the loneliest that I ever felt. I was truly...ALONE. Normally this doesn't bother me,as I have a love/hate relationship with humanity,but as the years have gone by,this feeling has increased. Its like I have been forced to see this loveless chasm and acknowledge it. Oy...I am capable of great love,devotion and the like,but I am scared,yet ready to try this love thing again. We will see how this goes. From what I am getting,he won't let up finding me and I think he is going to make quite the entrance. Will this be my last Valentine's Day single? I'm not sure, but I would be daft to rule anything out...